I dont know what has gotten into me lately. I eat. I actually ate today almost normally. I had breakfast, lunch and dinner. I ate a 1000 calories today. Whats wrong with me?! I do want to be skinny ! I want this so bad, yet still somehow I eat without thinking about it. And dont get me wrong, I do have a bad concsious but I just eat. And now I really really want to go and puke everything out, but I cant beacuse my parents are right there and they would hear everything and if they think i am sick, I cant go workout tomorrow... I think I need to go out for a walk and puke outside... Thats my only option..

Oh and btw, this morning 54.7 kg.

Getting there.. BUt right now its over 56 kg... I hate this...... I hate this so much... God let me be skinny. Its all that I am asking for...